there are so many layers to myself that I am constantly discovering that I'm finding it rather difficult to even write anything about it all. I feel it's hard to be myself when I know others are watching (in this case, reading.) I'm used to being me to the fullest when no one else is paying attention or watching. How do I let my true colors shine out in the open? I feel like I'm dressed as the main character and standing out on stage with an attentive audience. I know my lines and who I am, but I wasn't expecting having to play the part right now! It's like someone drew the curtain up when I wasn't ready and now I've got to figure out how to play my part successfully after such an embarrassing and awkward revealing. What's next? I'm not quite sure yet... suggestions anyone?
Fireworks
7 years ago
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This is such a fascinating entry to me, Lindsay. It sounds so precisely like what I've been feeling, lately. I don't know that I necessarily have any 'suggestions,' only to try our darndest to be our selves in the open the same as we are when no one's watching or reading. I think the thing that helps me with this the most is being completely open with my supportive husband, and getting his input on what he thinks I/we 'should' do about 'letting true colors shine out in the open!'
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